bingung

haaa..ugm kampus impian gue udah mulai buka pendaftaran.
daaaan, gue ampe detik ini masih belom daftar dan gue bingung mau daftar lewat mana.
PBS atau UTUL.
ah, kenapa mesti bareng si itu test nya kan gue jd bingung mesti milih salah satu.
masing2 ada kelebihan dan ada kekurangan.
pbs perlu duit lebih tapi testnya cuma TBS (test bakat skolastik) dan IPD (ilmu pengetahuan dasar), gue ga bilang gampang ya.
nah kalo utul, mata pelajaran yg di testin banyak ada ips nya juga.
kan mankanya gue bingung, sebenrnya orang tua udah bilang gausah ngurusin biaya yg penting kamu masuk.
sebenernya gue jg mau ikut jalur pbs si, tapi ada yg ngeganjellah.

haaaa..bingung
oke, nanti gue mau ke BK sekolah dan gue mau berkonsul ria disana
semoga hasilnya nanti adalah yg terbaik, dan gue bisa masuk kampus impian gue itu (amin amin ya Rabb)


buat yg ngunjungin blog gue, dan baca postingan gue ini.
doain gue ya, biar gue bisa masuk UGM.
gue juga doain yg terbaik buat kalian semua, semoga impian lo bisa tercapai juga.
big thanks for you, pokekisshug :) :*

iseng doang

hey, maaf gue menceritakan tentang cinta lg.
entah kenapa tiba2 gue kangen sama ini orang dan gue pengen nulis di blog ini tentang dia.
dia, best of the best my ex-bf.
ga usah gue kasih tau siapa namanya, dia yg bikin gue kagum subhanallah bgt.
bukan ganteng, dia biasa aja ko.
baik, standard semua juga baik.
dia perhatian, pengertian dan yg paling penting dia dewasa.
ya gue seneng sama cowo yg sikapnya dewasa, kayak dia.
kenapa gue berat banget ngelepasin dia, karna gue kagum dan gue cinta sama semua sifat dia.
dia ga malu mengakui gue depan umum, dia yg ngasih saran yg bener ke gue, dia yg berusaha ngejaga perasaan gue.
dia yg bisa bikin gue ngelupain masa lalu gue, hanya dia.
apalagi ketika gue tau hafalan dia yg subhanallah banget, pas gue pacaran sama dia udah 20 juz lebih.

sampe pada akhirnya, waktu itu tiba.
dia yg dewasa, dia yg perhatian, ilang semua.
dan yg menyebalkan dia malah perhatian ke 'mantan' nya, padahal gue jg lagi sakit waktu itu.
tiba2 dia cuek, padahal gue kira dia bukan type cowo cuek. gue sempet berfikir kalo itu semua dia lakuin dengan sengaja.
akhirnya setelah gue berkonsul ria dengan sahabat2 smp gue, saran mereka sama'
"putusin" ya semua nyaranin itu.
oke, hingga akhirnya suatu pagi keputusan itu pun terbentuk.
pagi itu, 27 desember 2009 gue resmi putus sama dia.
nyees banget emang gue harus keilangan dia yg bisa bikin gue ngelupain masa lalu gue, padahal mantan2 gue yg terdahulu ga ada yg bisa bikin gue lupa dengan masa lalu gue itu.
akhirnya gue masuk kamar dan gue lgsg sms "s", gue bilang "aku putus sama *****" air mata gue jg udah ga bisa di bendung waktu itu, gue nangis.
tapi setelah smsan sama "s" gue baru tau, "yg aku tau dia ada di 2 pilihan syif, dan dia harus harus pilih salah satu antara orang tua atau kamu. dia emang ga dibolehin pacaran soalnya udah kelas 3 mau ujian. bukan berarti dia ga sayang sama kamu ko syif, dia sayang sama kamu kalo dia ga sayang sama kamu ga mungkin dia nembak kamu dan pacaran sama kamu, kamu yg sabar ya."
setelah tau info itu air mata gue berenti, dan gue semakin kagum dengan dia.
sore2 gue sempet berkomunikasi dengan ade2an nya dia, dan itu sangan nyess buat gue.
"iya ka, ka ----- ke mantannya sama ke kaka sikap nya beda 180 derajat.", sakit woooy gue dibilang gitu seriusan.
ditambah gue setelah itu tau, "iya syiif, si ---- emang sayang bgt sama mantannya itu nyokapnya juga setuju nya cuma sama mantannya itu."
huwaaaaa, nyess sakit bgt gue dibilang gitu segitu sayang nya dia sama mantannya.
ga lama setelah itu, dia mendapat gelar serang hafizh.
subhanallah, tingkat kekaguman gue ke dia semakin bertambah dan bertambah.

2 bulan 28 hari tuh bagi gue ga cukup buat gue bareng2 sama lo, itu terlalu sebentar boy.
sebentar banget. gue masih mau samasama lo


ini tulisan sebenernya ga penting ya, cuma ya mood gue mau nulis ini jd gue tulis. nanti juga gue apus ko.

thanks god

that should be me

"That Should Be Me"

Everybody's laughing in my mind
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy
Do you do what you did when you
Did with me
Does he love you the way I can
Did you forget all the plans
That you made with me
'cause baby I didn't

That should be me
Holdin' your hand
That should be me
Makin' you laugh
That should be me
This is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me
Feelin' your kiss
That should be me
Buyin' you gifts
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that
That should be me

That should be me
Yeah,
You said you needed a little time
For my mistakes
It's funny how you use that time
To have me replaced
But did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
What you doin' to me
You're takin' him where we used to go
Now if you're tryin' to break my heart
It's working 'cause you know that

[Chorus:]
That should be me
Holdin' your hand
That should be me
Makin' you laugh
That should be me
This is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me
Feelin' your kiss
That should be me
Buyin' you gifts
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that
That should be me

I need to know, should I fight for love or disarm
It's getting harder to shield
This pain in my heart

[Chorus:]
That should be me
Holdin' your hand
That should be me
Makin' you laugh
That should be me
This is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me
Feelin' your kiss
That should be me
Buyin' you gifts
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that
That should be me
Holding your hand
That should be me
The one making you laugh, oh baby
That should be me
(that should be me giving you flowers)
That should be me
Talking for hours that should be me, that should be me
That should be me
Never should've let you go
I never should've let you go
That should be me 

you

yes, i swear i'm still loving you.

from the past until now.

i'm always try to forgotten you, but i cant.

when you love someone else, i'm still waiting for you.

you know?this feeling is so painful for me.

boy, please look at me.

see, the tears on my chick.

its because of you boy, 

because you never want to know what i feel.

i never think, you can be mine.

i just wanna love you, and you never know it.

because, you never understand what i feel.

yes you,

i'll always loving you, but i never think to you can be mine.

loving you is happy for me.

when i see your smile, i'll smile too.

although, i'm crying inside.

welcome to 2011

happy new year

welcome to 2011

happy new year all.

hope all of you can be better than before.

and in this year, i've so many dreams and expectation.

i wish :

graduated from my school with the best score.

i must go into favorite college

make my parents smiling proudly of me.

ok, in this year i have to do any thing better than before.

wish me luck in this year :)

because of you-keith martin

If ever you wondered if you touched my soul yes you do
Since I met you I’m not the same 
You bring life to everything I do
Just the way you say hello 
With one touch I can’t let go
Never thought I’d fall in love with you…

Chorus:
Because of you, my life has changed, thank you for the love and joy you bring
Because of you, I feel no shame, I’ll tell the world it’s because of you

Verse 2:
Sometimes I get lonely and all I gotta do is think of you
You captured something inside of me 
You make all of my dreams come true
It’s not enough that you love me for me 
You reached inside and touched me eternally
I love you best explains how I feel for you…

Chorus:
Because of you, my life has changed, thank you for the love and the joy you bring
Because of you, I feel no shame, I’ll tell the world it’s because of you

Bridge:
The magic in your eyes 
True love I can’t deny
When you hold me I just lose control
I want you to know that I’m never letting go
You mean so much to me I want the world to see,
It’s because of you

Chorus:
Because of you, my life has changed, thank you for the love and the joy you bring
Because of you, I feel no shame, I’ll tell the world it’s because of you
My life has changed thank you for the love and the joy you bring 
Because of you, I feel no shame, I’ll tell the world it’s because of you…

Spoken: 
Because of you